Less Me, More Him.

*Disclaimer: Please excuse me if this post seems fragmented. I'm currently eating my Lean Cuisine...which I'm pretending is actually from Johnny Carino's. Thank you in advance!*

God and I, we have a good thing going. When I get to the point with my faith that I'm starting to get comfortable or complacent, He sends me something that throws me for a loop and causes me to really evaluate where I am with Him. If I say I believe something or I'm convicted on a certain issue, He'll put a situation in my path that causes me to really dig down deep to make sure those words I speak so freely are truly the overflow of my heart.

"The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For out of the overflow of his heart his mouth speaks." (Luke 6:45, NIV)

Lately God has been allowing me to find my way into situations that are challenging, stressful, uncomfortable, and a little drama-filled. I've found that those knee-jerk reactions to get defensive, snippy, or rude aren't as far away from me as I would like to believe. I still feel those spiteful thoughts creeping up. I still want to approach the person that wronged me and tell them exactly what I think of their behavior. That disappoints me.

God has brought me so far in the past 3 years...sometimes I give myself too much credit. I like to think that those situations won't effect me the same way they used to, but old habits die hard.

Driving home from town this weekend God and I were talking things through. I told Him that I didn't want to be like I used to be when I was angry...I wanted to react in a way that was Christ-like, not emotion-driven. I know it will be a process, one that doesn't end. I also know that this process will be well worth it if it makes me more like Him.